Dear P, 

I can't believe I went the whole week without calling you, but seeing you on Monday was fun. I hope we get that job, will be fun to work together again!! 

Luv Ya

D. 



Dear Gene, 

I never thought it would have come so far between us. 

I never thought I would ever feel the way I feel for you now. 

Yes, you do still have to control your temper at some points and call me when I won't see you anymore!!! 

I do actually miss you and I am actually falling for you. 

The situation can get complicated........I'm warning you! 

Are you REALLY prepared to give up your wife for me? I still doubt that even though you say it's so. 

Plus I have no idea what ppl will think when they actually see me with you. 

Luckily we aren't that far............YET!! 

Hugs, 

D.

 Dear P, 

I have been thinking about you all day. Please pick up your phone. I miss ya and wanna talk to ya.

If Only Life Could Be Like a Computer

- If you messed up your life, you could press "Alt, Ctrl, Delete" and start all over!

- To get your daily exercise, just click on "run"!

- If you needed a break from life, click on "suspend".

- Hit "any key" to continue life when ready.

- To "add/remove" someone in your life, click settings and control panel.

- To improve your appearance, just adjust the display settings.

- If life gets too noisy, turn off the speakers.

- When you lose your car keys, click on "find".

- We could click on "send" and the kids would go to bed immediately.

- To feel like a new person, click on "refresh".

- Click on "close" to shut up the kids and spouse.

- To undo a mistake, click on "back".

- If you don't like cleaning the litter box, click on "delete".

Current Location: Work

This past weekend was my 27th borthday, boy am I getting old. My bro came to pick me up and then we headed up to the hydro dam. I do have to say I had expected it to be more fun, but it was cool anyway. The food was the best part. Maybe the trip was just too short anyway. 

The only part I hated was my uncle nagging about who would do the dishes on Saturday night. And he would foolishly joke, let the young ones do it. I really hate it when he jokingly nags like that. He always does it. He was lucky that most of the ppl caught me at the sink that night and I ended up doing the dishes anyway. Of course in other words its usually meant for me.....since I don't do them at home anyway. (well I'm hardly ever home in the second place.)No one acted like it was my bday in any which way, not even a bday song. NOTHING!!! 

I also really missed my boyfriend and I would've traded that day to just have spent some time w him. It really sucked. 

On Sunday when we got back I did go to the mall with one of my friends and we had a delicious tiramisu dessert which was to die for. I also finally was able to find Nike's that I liked in my size. GO ME!! 

I was also able to talk to my bf for a little while as well which was cool. I really am trying my best to put back all my trust in him but it's not just easy, since I just found out he still seems to have contact with her. How quickly life can change!!! 

Not in the mood to write anymore!

D.

Current Location: Work
Current Mood: disappointed

Even tho I was tired when I got home from work, I took a shower and headed my butt over to the mall. I had planned to go looking for some cute flip flops at one store, but I didn't like the ones they had. So I ened up in the store next to that one and saw some cute jeans........one thing I don't understand were the sizes in that store, the things were waaaay too small!! I normally wear a size 11 or 13 jeans, but I couldn't even get both of my legs in the size 13. I was bummed a little cuz the jeans were nice. Anywho.....I decided to continue looking around and ended up finding 2 CUTE tops......At first I struggled with myself wether or not to buy them both, but in the end I did. 

THEN....I ended up going to the sports store and there is was........a nice pair of nike max 180's. I went to pin some extra money (for some reason you cant use ur ATM card there) and when I got back, they didnt have my size. I really wanted them, so I raced over to another mall where they have the same store and to my avail, that store didnt even have the freaking sneaker. 

I think I may head over to downtown today and see if they have the sneaker there, but then again I also saw some nice jeans I wanted at the mall. I also need to check my budget, but I'm in the mood to treat myself!! Plus my bf isnt in town so I can have some fun spending mah money. LOL!! (I know, I know, I need to start saving for stuff for the house too, but that's on hold anyway) 

Tomorrow we're going over to a swimming resort here called "Zanderij 1" with the whole IT Team. Teambuilding! It should end up being a lot of fun and I need to bake a cake as well. I think I need to make a list of all the things I need to bring along.........but I'm hoping its gonna be loads of fun. Not sure if I'll go swimming yet, cuz my bathing suit is a mess.......hmmm maybe I should look for a new one today??? Ok so I guess it's final, I'm continuing my shopping spree!! I just need to check how much money I can spend......LMAO!! 

D.

Tags: flip flops, nike, shopping, teambuilding
Current Location: Bedroom
Current Mood: happy

Hello World, 

I hope to finally be able to keep an online journey, mostly about all the shit I have been going thru in this life of mine. Mostly my love life (but I will mention other stuff too). I have been with this guy for over 8 yrs and we have come to the point where my gut feeling is just telling me he's cheating, but he keeps denying it. 
I played a good hand in it all and even found out a lot, but still when I confronted him (twice) with the whole story he still lied about it. 

I also checked out some other journals on here and its good to c the things ppl are dealing with (esp. in their relationships) and its great to know that I'm not alone. 

Whenever I'm stressed I always turn to writing........so hopefully this will be my new place to vent. 

D.